Dizzy Practice

Gila!
Besok kan ga ada English Debate, maksudnya biar kita pada persiapan buat Mid. Semester Senin depan, jadi E.D. dipercepat. TADI ABIS PULANG SEKOLAH.

Gileeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, gue kira cuman absen sama pengumuman apalah doang, taunya ditanya, siapa yang mau ikut lomba di Gandhi Ancol (I have no idea where that school/place is.. -___-").
Gue angkat tangan aja, secara, yah, gue pingin nyoba gimanaaaaa gitu, abisnya gue ngiri sama Radit & Indra yang udah pernah ikut lomba di Binus E-Comp.
Gue kira cuman bakal didata doang, terus seleksi dan sebagainya masih nanti-nanti. Taunya, tadi, jebret, langsung nyoba debat! Yah, emang sih, cuman latihan doang, tapi kan tetep aja! That was my FRIGGIN' first time EVER to debate! All I ever do in E.D. was listening to what our seniors have to say, and that's it! I'VE NEVER TRIED TO DEBATE BEFORE! IN MY WHOLE LIFE!
And what was the role that I got this time?
FIRST SPEAKER OF THE GOVERNMENT SIDE OF THE HOUSE.
Daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamn!
I didn't know anything about debating! I completely forgot about the presentation that once had been done (at the first session of E.D. a long long time ago).
I panicked.
And the motion was taking me down lower than ever.

The motion was:
This House Would Support Capital Punishment for Corruptor

WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTT?????????????????????
HOW THE FUCK SHOULD I CARE ABOUT THAT KIND OF POLITICAL THINGIES???!

Gue ga ngerti sama sekali kalo udah deket-deket tema begituan!

Setelah diundi, gue satu tim sama Disa & Bella, sementara lawan kita Devina, Radit & Indra!
Anjeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeerrrr, dewa-dewa E.D. ada di tim lawan! Faaaaaark!
Mana case-building cuman 15 menit, dan awalnya gue kira itu 30 menit!
Pas Kak Mita bilang, "10 minutes left!", gue baru nulis 3 kalimat di buku Disney. Dan gue langsung ceming sesaat.
HAH? Perasaan baru bentar deh! Paling cuman 5 menit!
OH SHIT!
Berarti case-building ini cuman 15 menit! Graaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!

Pas giliran gue maju, yaitu paling pertama (WAAAAAAAAAAAARRRGHH!!), gue bener-bener ngerasa kacau, persiapan gue belom matang, dan gue berakhir dengan cuman berbicara di depan selama 2 menit 15 detik.
Apa yang gue omongin bener-bener ga spesifik, ga jelas, dan kurang pengembangan (BANGET). Yaiyalah, udah ga boleh browsing lewat handphone, motion-nya juga ga menarik sama sekali, gue juga ga ngikutin perkembangan yang ada hubungannya sama pemerintah-pemerintahan gitu, jadilah gue cuman ngomong apa tau ga jelas, pokoknya ancur banget deh!
Disa aja bisa ngomong lebih dari 3 menit, sementara Bella lebih dari 7 menit! Pas nge-reply juga Disa bagus, nah gue???!! Udah jadi pemimpin tim lah, istilahnya, tapi malah paling sebentar ngomong, paling gugup, paling sedikit materi yang dibawainnya, pokoknya ancur parah deh!

In the end of debate, me & Disa got some critics, while Bella was praised. I wasn't jealous of her, in fact, I thanked her because she made our team looked better.
I knew, my weaknesses are my points & arguments. I should've explained more about what my team supported on, I should've elaborated my arguments, and many other things.
There are some good points that me & Disa brought, though. But we didn't explicate them more. But Bella completed those arguments in some seriously awesome ways. Her vocabulary is ah-ma-zing! She ended up being the Best Speaker. Congraaaats!

Oh, and the winner was...
OH MY EFFING GOD! I FORGOT WHICH TEAM WON!
Ah, Whatever.

Moreover, I don't give a damn about it anymore.
Why?
Because I'm pretty sure that I won't be selected to join that Gandhi competition in this November.
:"/

When the debate was over, it was still raining cats and dogs. So I waited in the lobby, with some of my friends. But one by one, they all would be picked up, or went through the rain out of desperation.
But Radit was still there, talking with Kak Ruth about the debate and I was like, "hmm, I guess I'll consult to Kak Ruth too, I was a shit back then. How am I going to be better if I just stand here and do nothing?" So I decided to approach them.
Fast forward, and this time she was talking to me. Oh my, she was so awesome! The way she explained to me about my mistakes, and what I should've done as a First Speaker, it was terrific! She gave some examples so vividly, and she told me & Radit some of her experiences in debating.
Gaaaaaaaaaawd, how am I going to be as cool & brilliant as Kak Ruth???!!
When will I be as amazing as her???!!
Never, I guess.

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